Fair Rights: Wanting to Be True

To all who have a close eye on my life, judging me, holding me in the legal bind of captivity, depriving me and my ex-husband from co-parenting the way Allah asks us to uphold:

Your interference, fueled by your own life differences, keeps projecting judgment for something you’re all going to be proven wrong for. You made ill statements and passed judgment on me for following Allah’s guidance—the same guidance that once let me give close care in your lives before all this came about. You’ve chosen to depict your own fears as a way to perpetrate me, to make me into an enemy, so my children stay fearful of your impatient reactions instead of trusting the inherent understanding Allah placed in their hearts about their lives, their mother, and their father.

You expect God to consider your lives kindly, yet act like you own my soul—burning me with the little time and energy you give to actually mind your own business. Deep down, you’re all contributing because you truly think I’m lying about Allah’s guidance: that I’m a woman trying to claim being a messenger, seeking fame by saying I’m the reincarnation of Fatima Zahra, or trying to seduce men when, in truth, they only show me respect instead of unnecessary flirting. The list of what you enjoy telling yourselves goes on—and it’ll keep going as long as you think I’m the main show.

The reality is: Allah is the main show you’re all missing. And yes, He reincarnated me, had me live these challenges—regardless of your approval—and authority has the raw proof of it all. I’ve said before this is a family trial and a community affair for the sake of a renewal of faith that Allah Himself will deliver the results of. Our integrity, morals, values, and ethics are involved, and He’s not going to waste any good that’s been given.

And I’ll say this—call it conceited or really confident—but how you treat me is central to this whole trial. Allah will prove everything I say. Remember: I gave up what I did for His sake, while you framed it as me cheating with Garcia and trying to save my son. But ultimately, this is a story about who can break generational curses versus those who choose not to—because faith this pure was never meant to divide even the closest family members. Yet here we are, divided: some by distance, most by society’s devising attitude.

In captivity, even the closest people can make you feel low and needy, judging your requests based on mood, benefit, or boredom—defeating the purpose of offering help, then turning that “help” into credit, acting like life is Malibu when in truth they treat you like you live on Skid Row.

So yes, the “conceited” suggestion that must be said is this: Allah warns about ignoring His signs and being irresponsible with the resources He provides—sometimes hidden in plain sight to test your intentions. And so, after over two years in your limelight, I highly suggest you go back in time, remember life as it was before the fabric I chose to wear became your personal obsession—and remember that my divorce is personal, and still is, no matter what you’ve been told.

Allah has also revealed that a personal video of me has been exploited—by His will, I suppose, to show the leverage people want to keep over me. Yet this same video has, by Allah’s design, opened the hearts of men of understanding to see Allah in a new light through this family trial, and to see a similar concept regarding Garcia too. The claim that he and I ever had personal contact, that I violated my marriage, is exaggerated—because Allah Himself placed a form of true connection between our hearts but from afar. And while my dreams have drastically decreased to about 10% in the last two years (so Allah channels guidance into intuition rather than dreams as proof), Allah has revealed that He has me visit Ryan’s dreams to keep that connection from afar and to help him understand the wisdom behind this distance. I myself have never had dreams where I speak with him—only visions from Allah showing me what I need to know.

And to conclude: anyone who truly wants to take this message seriously already knows exactly what they need to do—because that’s the real concept of faith: wanting to be fair, wanting to be true. This is what Allah is encouraging: a protocol for you to practice, to prepare yourself for the ultimate need everyone keeps asking about in this matter—His Proof. And that kind of proof takes a long time coming.

I can’t tell you exactly when that will be. Even Mufti Menk said, five years ago, that life can take years to unfold—because real change isn’t about changing who we are completely, but about refining what we grew up knowing, shaping it into the corrections Allah guides us to see through this unique journey of learning and unlearning.

17:40
Has then your Lord (O Muhammad ﷺ) preferred for you sons, and taken for Himself from among the angels daughters? Verily! You indeed utter an awful saying.
17:41
And surely, We have explained (Our warnings) in this Qur'an (to the people), in various ways, that they might remember (or receive admonition), but it increases them in naught save aversion.
17:42
Say (O Muhammad ﷺ to these polytheists, pagans, etc.): "If there had been other gods along with Him, as they assert, then they would certainly have sought out a way to the Lord of the Throne (Allah)."
17:43
Glorified and High is He! From ‘Uluwan Kabira’ (Great is His Highness)! Far is He above what they say!
17:44
The seven heavens and the earth and all that is therein, glorify Him, and there is not a thing but glorifies His Praise. But you understand not their glorification. Truly, He is Ever Forbearing, Oft-Forgiving.
17:45
And when you (Muhammad ﷺ) recite the Qur'an, We put between you and those who believe not in the Hereafter, an invisible veil (or screen their hearts, so they hear or understand it not).

11:50
And to ‘Ad (people We sent) their brother Hud. He said: "O my people! Worship Allah! You have no other god but Him. Certainly, you do nothing but invent (lies).”
11:51
"O my people! I ask of you no reward for it (the Message); my reward is only from Him Who created me. Will you not then understand?"
11:52
"And O my people! Ask forgiveness of your Lord and then repent to Him, He will send you (from the sky) abundant rain, and add strength to your strength, so do not turn away as Mujrimun (criminals, disbelievers in the Oneness of Allah)."
11:53
They said: "O Hud! You have not brought us any clear proof, and we are not going to leave our gods on your (mere) saying! And we are not believers in you."
11:54
"All that we say is that some of our gods have seized you with evil (madness)." He said: "I call Allah to witness and bear you witness that I am free from that which you ascribe as partners in worship.”
11:55
"(With Him). So plot against me, all of you, and give me no respite."
11:56
"I put my trust in Allah, my Lord and your Lord! There is not a moving (living) creature but He has grasp of its forelock. Verily, my Lord is on a Straight Path (the truth)."
11:57
"So if you turn away, still I have conveyed the Message with which I was sent to you. My Lord will make another people succeed you, and you will not harm Him at all. Verily, my Lord is Guardian over all things."
11:58
And when Our Commandment came, We saved Hud and those who believed with him by a Mercy from Us, and We saved them from a severe torment.