I Run for Peace

There’s so much judgment you can face just for trying to follow Allah’s guidance — and the vague perceptions people hold about you can keep you feeling trapped. I cut off all the obvious things we grew up thinking Allah was trying to deprive us of. But in the end, Allah is really calling on us to test and try ourselves.

Through the silent challenges I’ve endured — whether anyone acknowledges my independence or not — I went through darkness and loneliness that helped me get to know myself, correct my behaviors, and discover the value of patience. That patience became part of my healing and deepened the sincerity of my prayers.

Giving Allah a good loan, like cutting off music, covering up more, or stepping back to reflect on the unseen signs He makes evident — is ultimately something that benefits us, not Him. Because if we truly see and understand ourselves, we remove what blinds us from recognizing His signs. Allah didn’t make us robots who just recite words; He gave us the freedom to choose and the responsibility to seek truth sincerely.

Some people still choose to misuse the message of Islam — twisting the literal wording of Qur’anic guidance into executive power to control or judge others. But Allah is clearly guiding us to uphold His judgment alone as what truly matters — and He is the One who appoints the results of our actions in this life according to His perfect balance and justice.

That’s why Allah had me experience places like jails and mental hospitals: to witness firsthand the unseen layers of both struggle and solution. Inside those places, even the service workers unknowingly reflect the unseen workings of angels, the reality of divine law, and the effects of the unseen jinn — while they document, protect, and enforce systems that echo Qur’anic principles of accountability.

As Allah tells us in Surah Al-Hadid, verse 25:

“We sent aforetime Our Messengers with clear proofs, and revealed with them the Scripture and the Balance, that mankind may keep up justice. And We sent down iron, wherein is mighty power (in matters of war), as well as many benefits for mankind…”
This verse is a reminder that Allah’s message, His Book, and even the tangible strength He gives (like iron, law, or authority) are tools meant to uphold real justice — not to serve corruption, pride, or personal agendas.
This shows that the material world and the spiritual law are intertwined: strength and justice are meant to serve truth, not oppression.

In Surah Adh-Dhariyat, Allah swears by the winds that scatter, the clouds that bear heavy loads, the ships that glide with ease, and the angels who distribute affairs by His command — all signs pointing to the unseen precision behind worldly order. These verses teach us that even the invisible forces around us are balanced and guided by His will.

When Allah tells us in several places that He spread out the earth, making it spacious and flat (like in 51:48: “And the earth — We have spread it out, how excellently We prepared it!”), it’s a reflection of mercy and design: so we can live, build, and find our way. This “flatness” isn’t merely geographical; it’s part of the perfect order and balance He created — so that truth, justice, and the unseen forces working in our lives can manifest on this vast canvas of the earth.

Allah’s decree is balanced, purposeful, and vast. Our role isn’t just to witness it, but to honor it — by living with justice, humility, and trust in the unseen wisdom behind every detail of His creation. At the end of the day, the test isn’t about controlling others or appearing righteous — but about living in a way that keeps justice alive, knowing that Allah alone holds the balance and final judgment.