Jargon Jam

In the Name of Allah, the Most Merciful, the Most Just.

There comes a point where silence begins to feel like betrayal—not to others, but to truth itself. And so, I speak now not to defend myself from rumors, accusations, or the perceptions of people, but because Allah has given me a burden that I must carry with clarity, not confusion. That burden is the responsibility to clear my name—not for pride or ego, but to realign the narrative with the truth Allah has always known.

I need it to be understood, unequivocally: I am not playing with the Qur’an. Astaghfirullah. I would never use the Book of Allah as a cover, a disguise, or a justification for sin. The assumption that I have done so is not only false—it is deeply insulting to the sincerity that has guided me, often painfully, through some of the most difficult trials of my life.

The accusations made against me have come in many forms. I’ve been painted as someone who abused the deen to get what she wanted, someone who pretended to be guided while privately engaging in dishonesty, cheating, and manipulation. And yet, these accusations fall apart when held up to the simple reality of my life.

It does not make sense to claim that someone with my history—as a daughter, a sister, a wife, and a mother—could live a life of such contradiction while still walking a path visibly marked by struggle, loss, and divine intervention. Who would choose to live as a fraud while simultaneously being put through the public and private pressures of divorce, wrongful arrest, and child welfare investigations? These are not the outcomes of someone “getting away” with anything. They are the signs of someone being tested in full view of others—and still choosing to hold on to Allah’s guidance.

There are people close enough to me who have weaponized my story to serve their own personal conclusions. They say I’ve been blessed and guided my whole life and yet accuse me of being ungrateful. They frame my growth in faith—particularly my choice to cover my face—as a stunt, a mask, or even a trick. And many have tried to stamp my divorce as a product of rebellion rather than reflection. But the reality is, I did not walk away from my marriage in peace. It was interrupted unjustly by authorities who misinformed, misled, and manipulated a false narrative. And still, I carried myself through it with the same sincerity that brought me to Allah’s path in the first place.

Some rumors have gone even further. I’ve heard the false claims that I was pregnant and desperate to abort a child. I’ve heard that my `iddah was invalid, that I failed to uphold the requirements of the deen during this critical time. What I’ve actually witnessed is the way others have used my sincerity as a point of exploitation—casting doubt on my every move, as if my commitment to Allah was a costume to be removed when convenient. But Allah knows that I have only grown more convicted in my truth, not less.

What these rumors truly expose is not my character, but the failure of others to pass Allah’s test. They were tested with what they thought they knew. They were tested with gossip, assumptions, partial truths, and access to influence—and they failed by using all of it to cause harm. Lies were told to authorities. My character was dissected and reconstructed into something unrecognizable, not because it reflected who I was, but because it served someone else’s need to control the story.

Allah tells us in the Qur’an to think well of what we do not know. To weigh matters with fairness. To judge only after deep thought and sincere reflection. And to never become a person who causes mischief. But in this situation, mischief has become a tool. Sarcasm has replaced sincere advice. And storytelling has overtaken truth.

The irony is, the more details are revealed, the more it gets distorted. The story was never meant to be centered around me. Allah didn’t guide me to make me famous or put me on a pedestal. He guided me to test us all—myself and those who would witness it. And as much as people think they’ve exposed me, perhaps they are the ones under Allah’s spotlight now.

I know how it looks. I know people think I’m the “dimwit” who gave up her inheritance in the midst of her divorce, and irresponsibly relied on her father and husband her whole life, and now wants to preach about guidance. But that dependence was never a weakness—it was preparation. When I gave up my worldly attachments, it wasn’t because I had no other choice—it was because Allah was teaching me to rely solely on Him. That’s the real metaphor. And it’s one people missed because they were too busy trying to prove me wrong.

Following Allah’s guidance doesn’t make you immune to pain. It doesn’t protect you from judgment or misrepresentation. But it does give you clarity, vision—and peace. Even when everyone around you is questioning your credibility. 

So I say this, not for attention or sympathy, but for the sake of truth. I did not choose this path to deceive. I chose it to survive and rectify my matters safely. Let Allah be my witness. And let the truth, one day, settle everything else.

Surah Saba (34): Verses 28–30 
28.
And We have not sent you (O Muhammad صلى الله عليه وسلم) except as a giver of glad tidings and a warner to all mankind, but most of men know not.

29.
And they say: "When is this promise (i.e. the Day of Resurrection) if you are truthful?"

30.
Say (O Muhammad صلى الله عليه وسلم): "The appointment to you is for a Day, which you cannot put back for an hour (nor put forward), even if you were able."

Surah Fatir (35): Verses 28–30 

28. And of men and ad-Dawâb (moving living creatures, beasts), and cattle, in like manner of various colours. It is only those who have knowledge among His slaves that fear Allâh. Verily, Allâh is All-Mighty, Oft-Forgiving.

29. Verily, those who recite the Book of Allâh (this Qur’ân), and perform As-Salât (Iqâmat-as-Salât), and spend in charity out of what We have provided for them, secretly and openly, hope for a sure trade-gain that will never perish.

30. That He may pay them their wages in full, and give them (even) more, out of His Grace. Verily, He is Oft-Forgiving, Most Ready to appreciate (deeds).

 
Surah Muhammad (47): Verses 11–21 — Muhsin Khan Translation
11.
This is because Allâh is the Maula (Lord, Master, Helper, Protector, etc.) of those who believe, and the disbelievers have no Maula (lord, master, helper, protector, etc.).

12.
Certainly! Allâh will admit those who believe (in the Oneness of Allâh - Islâmic Monotheism) and do righteous good deeds, to Gardens underneath which rivers flow (in Paradise); while those who disbelieve enjoy themselves and eat as cattle eat; and the Fire will be their abode.

13.
And many a town, stronger than your town (Makkah) (O Muhammad ﷺ) which has driven you out, We have destroyed. And there was none to help them.

14.
Is he who is on a clear proof from his Lord, like those for whom their evil deeds are made fair-seeming to them, while they follow their own lusts (evil desires)?

15.
(This is the description of) the Paradise which the Muttaqûn (the pious) are promised: therein are rivers of water the taste and smell of which are not changed, rivers of milk of which the taste never changes, rivers of wine delicious to those who drink, and rivers of clarified honey (clear and pure); therein for them is every kind of fruit; and forgiveness from their Lord. (Are these) like those who shall dwell for ever in the Fire, and be given to drink boiling water, so that it cuts up their bowels?

16.
And among them are some who listen to you (O Muhammad ﷺ), till when they go out from you, they say to those who have received knowledge: "What is it he has said just now?" Such are men whose hearts Allâh has sealed because they followed their lusts (evil desires).

17.
While as for those who accept guidance, He increases their guidance, and bestows on them their piety.

18.
Do they then await (anything) other than the Hour, that it should come upon them suddenly? But some of its signs have already come; and when it (the Hour) is actually on them, how can they benefit then by their reminder?

19.
So know (O Muhammad ﷺ) that Lâ ilâha ill-Allâh (none has the right to be worshipped but Allâh), and ask forgiveness for your sin, and also for (the sin of) believing men and believing women. And Allâh knows well your moving about, and your place of rest (in your homes).

20.
Those who believe say: "Why is not a Sûrah (chapter of the Qur’ân) sent down (for us)?" But when a decisive Sûrah (explaining and ordering things) is sent down, and fighting (Jihâd - holy fighting in Allâh's Cause) is mentioned (in it), you will see those in whose hearts is a disease (of hypocrisy) looking at you with a look of one fainting to death. That is more fitting for them.

21.
Obedience (to Allâh) and good words were better for them. And when the matter (of fighting) is resolved on, then if they had been true to Allâh, it would have been better for them.

Surah Taha (20): Verses 133–135
133.
And they say: "Why does he not bring us a sign (proof) from his Lord?" Has there not come to them the clear evidence of what is in the former Scriptures?

134.
And if We had destroyed them with a torment before this (i.e. Muhammad ﷺ and the Qur’an), they would surely have said: "Our Lord! If only You had sent us a Messenger, we should certainly have followed Your Ayât (proofs, evidences, verses, lessons, signs, revelations, etc.), before we were humiliated and disgraced."

135.
Say (O Muhammad ﷺ): "Each one (believes) in his way, and you will know who is in the right path, and who has received guidance (rightly)."

Surah Yaseen

36:1
يس
Ya-Sin. [These letters are one of the miracles of the Quran, and none but Allah (Alone) knows their meanings.]
36:2
والقرآن الحكيم

By the Quran, full of wisdom (i.e. full of laws, evidences, and proofs),
36:3
إنك لمن المرسلين

Truly, you (O Muhammad SAW) are one of the Messengers,
36:4
على صراط مستقيم

On a Straight Path (i.e. on Allah's religion of Islamic Monotheism).
36:5
تنزيل العزيز الرحيم

(This is) a Revelation sent down by the AllMighty, the Most Merciful,
36:6
لتنذر قوما ما أنذر آباؤهم فهم غافلون

In order that you may warn a people whose forefathers were not warned, so they are heedless.
36:7
لقد حق القول على أكثرهم فهم لا يؤمنون

Indeed the Word (of punishment) has proved true against most of them, so they will not believe.
36:8
إنا جعلنا في أعناقهم أغلالا فهي إلى الأذقان فهم مقمحون

Verily! We have put on their necks iron collars reaching to chins, so that their heads are forced up.
36:9
وجعلنا من بين أيديهم سدّا ومن خلفهم سدّا فأغشيناهم فهم لا يبصرون

And We have put a barrier before them, and a barrier behind them, and We have covered them up, so that they cannot see.
36:10
وسواء عليهم أأنذرتهم أم لم تنذرهم لا يؤمنون

It is the same to them whether you warn them or you warn them not, they will not believe.
36:11
إنما تنذر من اتبع الذكر وخشي الرحمن بالغيب فبشره بمغفرة وأجر كريم

You can only warn him who follows the Reminder (the Quran), and fears the Most Beneficent (Allah) unseen. Bear you to such one the glad tidings of forgiveness, and a generous reward (i.e. Paradise).
36:12
إنا نحن نحيي الموتى ونكتب ما قدموا وآثارهم وكل شيء أحصيناه في إمام مبين

Verily, We give life to the dead, and We record that which they send before (them), and their traces [their footsteps and walking on the earth with their legs to the mosques for the five compulsory congregational prayers, Jihad (holy fighting in Allah's Cause) and all other good and evil they did, and that which they leave behind], and all things We have recorded with numbers (as a record) in a Clear Book.
36:13
واضرب لهم مثلا أصحاب القرية إذ جاءها المرسلون

And put forward to them a similitude; the (story of the) dwellers of the town, [It is said that the town was Antioch (Antakiya)], when there came Messengers to them.
36:14
إذ أرسلنا إليهم اثنين فكذبوهما فعززنا بثالث فقالوا إنا إليكم مرسلون

When We sent to them two Messengers, they belied them both, so We reinforced them with a third, and they said: "Verily! We have been sent to you as Messengers."
36:15
قالوا ما أنتم إلا بشر مثلنا وما أنزل الرحمن من شيء إن أنتم إلا تكذبون

They (people of the town) said: "You are only human beings like ourselves, and the Most Beneficent (Allah) has revealed nothing, you are only telling lies."
36:16
قالوا ربنا يعلم إنا إليكم لمرسلون

The Messengers said: "Our Lord knows that we have been sent as Messengers to you,
36:17
وما علينا إلا البلاغ المبين

"And our duty is only to convey plainly (the Message)."
36:18
قالوا إنا تطيرنا بكم لئن لم تنتهوا لنرجمنكم وليمسنكم منا عذاب أليم

They (people) said: "For us, we see an evil omen from you, if you cease not, we will surely stone you, and a painful torment will touch you from us."
36:19
قالوا طائركم معكم أئن ذكرتم بل أنتم قوم مسرفون

They (Messengers) said: "Your evil omens be with you! (Do you call it "evil omen") because you are admonished? Nay, but you are a people Musrifun (transgressing all bounds by committing all kinds of great sins, and by disobeying Allah).
36:20
وجاء من أقصى المدينة رجل يسعى قال يا قوم اتبعوا المرسلين

And there came running from the farthest part of the town, a man, saying: "O my people! Obey the Messengers;
36:21
اتبعوا من لا يسألكم أجرا وهم مهتدون

"Obey those who ask no wages of you (for themselves), and who are rightly guided.
36:22
وما لي لا أعبد الذي فطرني وإليه ترجعون

"And why should I not worship Him (Allah Alone) Who has created me and to Whom you shall be returned.
36:23
أأتخذ من دونه آلهة إن يردن الرحمن بضرّ لا تغن عني شفاعتهم شيئا ولا ينقذون

"Shall I take besides Him aliha (gods), if the Most Beneficent (Allah) intends me any harm, their intercession will be of no use for me whatsoever, nor can they save me?
36:24
إني إذا لفي ضلال مبين

"Then verily, I should be in plain error.
36:25
إني آمنت بربكم فاسمعون

Verily! I have believed in your Lord, so listen to me!"
36:26
قيل ادخل الجنة قال يا ليت قومي يعلمون

It was said (to him when the disbelievers killed him): "Enter Paradise." He said: "Would that my people knew!
36:27to top
بما غفر لي ربي وجعلني من المكرمين

"That my Lord (Allah) has forgiven me, and made me of the honoured ones!"
36:28
وما أنزلنا على قومه من بعده من جند من السماء وما كنا منزلين

And We sent not against his people after him a host from heaven, nor do We send (such a thing).
36:29
إن كانت إلا صيحة واحدة فإذا هم خامدون

It was but one Saihah (shout, etc.) and lo! They (all) were silent (dead-destroyed).
36:30
يا حسرة على العباد ما يأتيهم من رسول إلا كانوا به يستهزئون

Alas for mankind! There never came a Messenger to them but they used to mock at him.
36:31
ألم يروا كم أهلكنا قبلهم من القرون أنهم إليهم لا يرجعون

Do they not see how many of the generations We have destroyed before them? Verily, they will not return to them.
36:32
وإن كل لما جميع لدينا محضرون

And surely, all, everyone of them will be brought before Us.
36:33
وآية لهم الأرض الميتة أحييناها وأخرج منها حبّا فمنه يأكلون

And a sign for them is the dead land. We gave it life, and We brought forth from it grains, so that they eat thereof.
36:34
وجعلنا فيها جنات من نخيل وأعناب وفجرنا فيها من العيون

And We have made therein gardens of date-palms and grapes, and We have caused springs of water to gush forth therein.
36:35
ليأكلوا من ثمره وما عملته أيديهم أفلا يشكرون

So that they may eat of the fruit thereof, and their hands made it not. Will they not, then, give thanks?
36:36
سبحان الذي خلق الأزواج كلها مما تنبت الأرض ومن أنفسهم ومما لا يعلمون

Glory be to Him, Who has created all the pairs of that which the earth produces, as well as of their own (human) kind (male and female), and of that which they know not.
36:37
وآية لهم الليل نسلخ منه النهار فإذا هم مظلمون

And a sign for them is the night, We withdraw therefrom the day, and behold, they are in darkness.
36:38
والشمس تجري لمستقرّ لها ذلك تقدير العزيز العليم

And the sun runs on its fixed course for a term (appointed). That is the Decree of the All-Mighty, the All-Knowing.
36:39
والقمر قدرناه منازل حتى عاد كالعرجون القديم

And the moon, We have measured for it mansions (to traverse) till it returns like the old dried curved date stalk.
36:40
لا الشمس ينبغي لها أن تدرك القمر ولا الليل سابق النهار وكل في فلك يسبحون

It is not for the sun to overtake the moon, nor does the night outstrip the day. They all float, each in an orbit.
36:41
وآية لهم أنا حملنا ذريتهم في الفلك المشحون

And an Ayah (sign) for them is that We bore their offspring in the laden ship [of Nuh (Noah)].
36:42
وخلقنا لهم من مثله ما يركبون

And We have created for them of the like thereunto, so on them they ride.
36:43
وإن نشأ نغرقهم فلا صريخ لهم ولا هم ينقذون

And if We will, We shall drown them, and there will be no shout (or helper) for them (to hear their cry for help) nor will they be saved.
36:44
إلا رحمة منا ومتاعا إلى حي

Unless it be a mercy from Us, and as an enjoyment for a while.
36:45
وإذا قيل لهم اتقوا ما بين أيديكم وما خلفكم لعلكم ترحمون

And when it is said to them: "Beware of that which is before you (worldly torments), and that which is behind you (torments in the Hereafter), in order that you may receive Mercy (i.e. if you believe in Allah's Religion Islamic Monotheism, and avoid polytheism, and obey Allah with righteous deeds).
36:46
وما تأتيهم من آية من آيات ربهم إلا كانوا عنها معرضين

And never came an Ayah from among the Ayat (proofs, evidences, verses, lessons, signs, revelations, etc.) of their Lord to them, but they did turn away from it.
36:47
وإذا قيل لهم أنفقوا مما رزقكم الله قال الذين كفروا للذين آمنوا أنطعم من لو يشاء الله أطعمه إن أنتم إلا في ضلال مبين

And when it is said to them: "Spend of that with which Allah has provided you," those who disbelieve say to those who believe: "Shall we feed those whom, if Allah willed, He (Himself) would have fed? You are only in a plain error."
36:48
ويقولون متى هذا الوعد إن كنتم صادقين

And they say: "When will this promise (i.e. Resurrection) be fulfilled, if you are truthful?"
36:49
ما ينظرون إلا صيحة واحدة تأخذهم وهم يخصمون

They await only but a single Saihah (shout, etc.), which will seize them while they are disputing!
36:50
فلا يستطيعون توصية ولا إلى أهلهم يرجعون

Then they will not be able to make bequest, nor they will return to their family.
36:51
ونفخ في الصور فإذا هم من الأجداث إلى ربهم ينسلون

And the Trumpet will be blown (i.e. the second blowing) and behold! From the graves they will come out quickly to their Lord.
36:52
قالوا يا ويلنا من بعثنا من مرقدنا هذا ما وعد الرحمن وصدق المرسلون

They will say: "Woe to us! Who has raised us up from our place of sleep." (It will be said to them): "This is what the Most Beneficent (Allah) had promised, and the Messengers spoke truth!"
36:53
إن كانت إلا صيحة واحدة فإذا هم جميع لدينا محضرون

It will be but a single Saihah (shout, etc.), so behold! They will all be brought up before Us!
36:54
فاليوم لا تظلم نفس شيئا ولا تجزون إلا ما كنتم تعملون

This Day (Day of Resurrection), none will be wronged in anything, nor will you be requited anything except that which you used to do.
36:55
إن أصحاب الجنة اليوم في شغل فاكهون

Verily, the dwellers of the Paradise, that Day, will be busy in joyful things.
36:56
هم وأزواجهم في ظلال على الأرائك متكئون

They and their wives will be in pleasant shade, reclining on thrones.
36:57
لهم فيها فاكهة ولهم ما يدعون

They will have therein fruits (of all kinds) and all that they ask for.
36:58
سلام قولا من ربّ رحيم

(It will be said to them): Salamun (peace be on you), a Word from the Lord (Allah), Most Merciful.
36:59
وامتازوا اليوم أيها المجرمون

(It will be said): "And O you Al-Mujrimun (criminals, polytheists, sinners, disbelievers in the Islamic Monotheism, wicked evil ones, etc.)! Get you apart this Day (from the believers).
36:60
ألم أعهد إليكم يا بني آدم أن لا تعبدوا الشيطان إنه لكم عدو مبين

Did I not ordain for you, O Children of Adam, that you should not worship Shaitan (Satan). Verily, he is a plain enemy to you.
36:61
وأن اعبدوني هذا صراط مستقيم

And that you should worship Me [Alone Islamic Monotheism, and set up not rivals, associate-gods with Me]. That is a Straight Path.
36:62
ولقد أضل منكم جبلّا كثيرا أفلم تكونوا تعقلون

And indeed he (Satan) did lead astray a great multitude of you. Did you not, then, understand?
36:63
هذه جهنم التي كنتم توعدون

This is Hell which you were promised!
36:64
اصلوها اليوم بما كنتم تكفرون
Burn therein this Day, for that you used to disbelieve.
36:65
اليوم نختم على أفواههم وتكلمنا أيديهم وتشهد أرجلهم بما كانوا يكسبون
This Day, We shall seal up their mouths, and their hands will speak to Us, and their legs will bear witness to what they used to earn. (It is said that one's left thigh will be the first to bear the witness). [Tafsir At-Tabari, Vol. 22, Page 24]
36:66
ولو نشاء لطمسنا على أعينهم فاستبقوا الصراط فأنى يبصرون
And if it had been Our Will, We would surely have wiped out (blinded) their eyes, so that they would struggle for the Path, how then would they see?
36:67
ولو نشاء لمسخناهم على مكانتهم فما استطاعوا مضيّا ولا يرجعون

And if it had been Our Will, We could have transformed them (into animals or lifeless objects) in their places. Then they should have been unable to go forward (move about) nor they could have turned back. [As it happened with the Jews see Verse 7:166 The Quran].
36:68
ومن نعمره ننكسه في الخلق أفلا يعقلون

And he whom We grant long life, We reverse him in creation (weakness after strength). Will they not then understand?
36:69
وما علمناه الشعر وما ينبغي له إن هو إلا ذكر وقرآن مبين

And We have not taught him (Muhammad SAW) poetry, nor is it meet for him. This is only a Reminder and a plain Quran.
36:70
لينذر من كان حيّا ويحق القول على الكافرين

That he or it (Muhammad SAW or the Quran) may give warning to him who is living (a healthy minded the believer), and that Word (charge) may be justified against the disbelievers (dead, as they reject the warnings).
36:71
أولم يروا أنا خلقنا لهم مما عملت أيدينا أنعاما فهم لها مالكون

Do they not see that We have created for them of what Our Hands have created, the cattle, so that they are their owners.
36:72
وذللناها لهم فمنها ركوبهم ومنها يأكلون

And We have subdued them unto them so that some of them they have for riding and some they eat.
36:73
ولهم فيها منافع ومشارب أفلا يشكرون
And they have (other) benefits from them (besides), and they get (milk) to drink, will they not then be grateful?
36:74
واتخذوا من دون الله آلهة لعلهم ينصرون
And they have taken besides Allah aliha (gods), hoping that they might be helped (by those so called gods).
36:75
لا يستطيعون نصرهم وهم لهم جند محضرون
They cannot help them, but they will be brought forward as a troop against those who worshipped them (at the time of Reckoning).
36:76
فلا يحزنك قولهم إنا نعلم ما يسرون وما يعلنون
So let not their speech, then, grieve you (O Muhammad SAW). Verily, We know what they conceal and what they reveal.
36:77
أولم ير الإنسان أنا خلقناه من نطفة فإذا هو خصيم مبين
Does not man see that We have created him from Nutfah (mixed male and female discharge semen drops). Yet behold! He (stands forth) as an open opponent.
36:78
وضرب لنا مثلا ونسي خلقه قال من يحيي العظام وهي رميم
And he puts forth for Us a parable, and forgets his own creation. He says: "Who will give life to these bones when they have rotted away and became dust?"
36:79
قل يحييها الذي أنشأها أول مرة وهو بكل خلق عليم
Say: (O Muhammad SAW) "He will give life to them Who created them for the first time! And He is the All-Knower of every creation!"
36:80
الذي جعل لكم من الشجر الأخضر نارا فإذا أنتم منه توقدون
He, Who produces for you fire out of the green tree, when behold! You kindle therewith.
36:81
أوليس الذي خلق السماوات والأرض بقادر على أن يخلق مثلهم بلى وهو الخلاق العليم

Is not He, Who created the heavens and the earth Able to create the like of them? Yes, indeed! He is the All-Knowing Supreme Creator.
36:82
إنما أمره إذا أراد شيئا أن يقول له كن فيكون
Verily, His Command, when He intends a thing, is only that He says to it, "Be!" and it is!
36:83
فسبحان الذي بيده ملكوت كل شيء وإليه ترجعون
So Glorified is He and Exalted above all that they associate with Him, and in Whose Hands is the dominion of all things, and to Him you shall be returned.