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This is not some so-called family trial — it is a trial, a deeply real one. And yet, so many have chosen to treat it like it’s a reality show or tabloid story. They consume it like entertainment, twisting every detail, mocking the sacredness of what’s unfolding as if it were just gossip. But in doing so, they’re exposing the brokenness of their own moral compass. Fairness and justice have been replaced with assumptions and cruelty — and the worst part is, they act as if I deserve public humiliation, even execution, for simply standing by my faith and trying to make sense of this with Allah's help.
One of the most misunderstood pieces of this story is the involvement of my son’s principal. From the outside, people have tried to frame it as something inappropriate — accusing me of using the niqab to hide an affair or forge a divorce. That never happened. The truth is far from the scandal they try to paint. Allah, in His wisdom, allowed this man — by law and duty, my son’s principal — to be guided by the same material Allah was inspiring me with. It’s a mercy and a sign, not a conspiracy.
I don’t know if we received these insights at the same time, but reports I made to the sheriff or things I confronted my family about were somehow believed to have also been reported or raised by him. That is not coincidence. That is not strategy. That is divine coordination — Allah showing that He is the One truly guiding the course of this matter. While also backing me up with years of proof that the principal and I never had any involvement together to to plan or scheme such a thing. And presenting the indirect surveillance of the FBI to watch me now, proving that till this day, Allah is guiding us both fairly and separately in sync.
This principal’s involvement was never romantic. It was functional, lawful, and spiritual. He was placed there to help navigate and neutralize a very sensitive family matter that no one in my family had the spiritual or emotional capacity to handle. Their framework is built on superficial perception — they interpret “truth” in a way that suits their mood, their comfort, their image. Not truth in its essence. Not truth that stands before Allah.
Instead of embracing what could have been a chance to face the situation maturely and with fairness, they chose to project. To twist. To treat me like a manipulator or a madwoman. When in reality, I was leaning fully on Allah’s guidance to walk through an extremely dark storm.
And even then, when I tried to get the evidence that proves my side — the truth that’s being hidden — I was hit with a restraining order by the FBI. All I did was seek clarity, seek access to what they’re withholding. But instead, they portrayed me as a stalker. They punished me for trying to heal.
And now, some go as far as saying I’m using the deen — pretending to be guided by Allah to point fingers at people who “ruined my life.” But they never stop to think: if I truly had nothing, why would I keep pressing on? Why would I still be standing, still be patient, still be reaching out, even to those who slandered me to authority?
The people who answered questions about me are now silent — completely ignoring me. That silence is a response. It’s a way to keep me boxed into this “ghost case” narrative. It’s control. And yet I continue to reach out with open hands and truth.
The city I lived in knows. They know my character, my open-heartedness, the love and sincerity I offered. They also know the FBI began tracking me from the moment I wore the niqab — something that should’ve never been criminalized. But I believe there is wisdom in this duration, this waiting, this test. Because faith requires consent — it requires an open heart. You cannot receive Allah’s light if you are busy blocking it out with suspicion, arrogance, or denial.
Intentions are everything. This path isn’t about theatrics — it’s about truth. Paradise is the destination, yes. But the challenge is in aligning ourselves with the Quran. That’s not always flashy. It’s personal. Quiet. Sacred.
Every time a piece of evidence surfaces — something that clearly confirms Allah is guiding me — there’s always someone trying to bury it. To manipulate it. To twist it just enough to preserve their version of the story: that I’m the problem.
I remember my father used to tell me, even when I wasn't seeking marital advice but he would warn me in the event that I'd have an issue with my husband, “You lose all your leverage if you leave your house.” And oh, how true that felt when I was forcefully arrested — after calling 911 myself — knowing full well the FBI was present and holding proof of my innocence.
They used every vulnerability against me — mine, my children’s, and even my husband’s. And still, they kept the performance going with the same empty question: “Well, if Allah is guiding her, why isn’t she saved?”
But the truth is: Allah is the Master of my affairs. He knows me. He knows them. And He alone is the Judge over all our matters.
In the context of this family trial, He is using me as a living example — a concept — for you to understand just how deceptive life can become, how far people are willing to go to suppress the truth, and how quick they are to turn the very people who once supported me... against me.
So please — stop abusing me and redirect your intentions toward what is just and sincere. Stop trying to dismantle what you didn’t build. Because every person who has intentionally misrepresented me, twisted my truth, and mocked my sincerity will end up retracting — and recognize the reality they tried so hard to deny. They’ll come to see the truth. And whether it’s in humility or humiliation, they’ll learn from this demonstration that was never against anyone but themselves. Because in the end, we will all meet Allah. And what will matter is not how well we played the part, but how honestly we acknowledged that He's already present.
By the way, I dont support Anti-semitism, I dont support any anti group that is condescending and rejects life.
Bism Illah Al Rahman Al Raheem
And indeed We sent among them a Messenger from among themselves (saying): "Worship Allah! You have no other Ilah (God) but Him. Will you not fear (Allah)?"
And the chiefs of his people who disbelieved and denied the Meeting in the Hereafter, and whom We had given the luxuries and comforts of this life, said: "He is only a human being like you, he eats of that which you eat, and drinks of what you drink.
"If you were to obey a human being like yourselves, then verily you indeed would be losers.
"Does he promise you that when you have died and have become dust and bones, you shall come out alive (resurrected)?
"Far, very far is that which you are promised!
"There is nothing but our life of this world! We die and we live! And we are not going to be resurrected!
"He is only a man who has invented a lie against Allah, but we are not going to believe in him."
He said: "O my Lord! Help me because they deny me."
Allah said: "In a little while, they are sure to be regretful."
So the Saihah (torment - awful cry, etc.) overtook them in truth, and We made them as rubbish of dead plants. So away with the people who do wrong!
Then, after them, We created other generations.
No nation can advance its term, nor delay it.
Then We sent Our Messengers in succession. Every time there came to a nation their Messenger, they denied him, so We made them follow one another (to destruction), and We made them as Ahadith (the true stories for mankind to learn a lesson from them). So away with a people who believe not!
Then We sent Musa (Moses) and his brother Harun (Aaron), with Our Ayat (proofs, evidences, verses, lessons, signs, revelations, etc.) and a manifest authority,
To Fir'aun (Pharaoh) and his chiefs, but they behaved insolently and they were people self-exalting (by disobeying their Lord).
They said: "Shall we believe in two men like ourselves, and their people are obedient to us with humility (and are mean compared to us)?"
So they denied them both and became of those who were destroyed.
And indeed We gave Musa (Moses) the Scripture, that they may be guided.
And We made the son of Maryam (Mary) and his mother as a sign, and We gave them refuge on high ground, a place of rest, security and flowing streams.
O (you) Messengers! Eat of the Tayyibat [all kinds of Halal (lawful) foods], and do righteous deeds. Verily! I am Well-Acquainted with what you do.
And verily! This your religion (of Islamic Monotheism) is one religion, and I am your Lord, so fear (keep your duty to) Me.
But they (men) have broken their religion among them into sects, each group rejoicing in its belief.
So leave them in their error for a time.
Do they think that We enlarge them in wealth and children,
We hasten unto them with good things. Nay, but they perceive not.
Verily! Those who live in awe for fear of their Lord;
And those who believe in the Ayat (proofs, evidences, verses, lessons, signs, revelations, etc.) of their Lord;
And those who join not anyone (in worship) as partners with their Lord;
And those who give that (their charity) which they give with their hearts full of fear (whether it has been accepted or not), because they are sure to return to their Lord (for reckoning).
It is these who race for the good deeds, and they are foremost in them.
And We tax not any person except according to his capacity, and with Us is a Record which speaks the truth, and they will not be wronged.
Nay, but their hearts are covered from (understanding) this (the Qur'an), and they have other (evil) deeds, besides, which they are doing.
Till, when We seize those of them who lead a luxurious life with punishment; behold, they make humble invocation with a loud voice.
Invoke not loudly this day! Certainly you shall not be helped by Us.
Indeed My Verses used to be recited to you, but you used to turn back on your heels.
In pride (therein) talking evil about it by night.
Have they not pondered over the Word (of Allah), or has there come to them what had not come to their fathers of old?
Or is it that they did not recognize their Messenger (Muhammad), so they deny him?
Or say they: "There is a madness in him?" Nay, but he brought them the truth (i.e. Islamic Monotheism), but most of them are averse to the truth.
Had it been the truth (i.e. Allah's Religion of Islamic Monotheism) against which they are averse, surely, they would have made peace with it.
And if the truth had been in accordance with their desires, verily, the heavens and the earth, and whosoever is therein would have been corrupted! Nay, We have brought them their Reminder, but they turn away from their Reminder.
Or is it that you (O Muhammad) ask them for some Kharj (tribute) so that they are overburdened with a load of debt?
Or that the Ghaib (unseen) is with them, and they write it down?
Nay, but We have given to them and to their fathers enjoyment, till time grew long for them; see they not that We bring the earth (its population) reducing it from its outlying borders? Is it then they will overcome?
Say (O Muhammad): "I warn you only by the Revelation." But the deaf hear not the call, (even) when they are warned.
And verily, if a breath of the torment of your Lord were to touch them, they would sure say: "Woe to us! Indeed we have been Zalimun (polytheists, wrong-doers, criminals)!"
And We shall set up balances of justice on the Day of Resurrection, then none will be dealt with unjustly in anything. And if there be the weight of a mustard seed, We will bring it. And Sufficient are We to take account.
And indeed We granted to Musa (Moses) and Harun (Aaron) the criterion (of right and wrong), and a shining light (Torah) and a Reminder for Al-Muttaqun (the pious - see V.2:2).
Those who fear their Lord without seeing Him, while they are afraid of the Hour.
And this is a blessed Reminder (the Qur'an) which We have sent down, will you then (dare to) deny it?
And indeed We gave Musa (Moses) the guidance, and We caused the Children of Israel to inherit the Scripture.
A guide and a reminder for men of understanding.
So be patient (O Muhammad). Verily, the Promise of Allah is true, and ask forgiveness for your fault, and glorify the Praises of your Lord in the 'Ashi (i.e. the time period after the mid-noon till sunset) and in the Ibkar (i.e. the time period from early morning or sunrise till before mid-noon).
Verily, those who dispute about the Hour are in error far away.
Allah it is He Who has created the heavens and the earth, and all that is between them in six Days. Then He Istawa (rose over) the Throne (in a manner that suits His Majesty). You (mankind) have none, besides Him, as a Wali (protector or helper) or an intercessor. Will you not then remember (or be admonished)?
He manages and regulates (every) affair from the heavens to the earth; then it will go up to Him, in one Day, the space whereof is a thousand years of your reckoning (i.e. reckoning of our present world's time).
That is He: the All-Knower of the unseen and the seen, the All-Mighty, the Most Merciful.
Who made everything He has created good, and He began the creation of man from clay.
Then He made his offspring from semen of worthless water (male and female sexual discharge).
Then He fashioned him in due proportion, and breathed into him the soul (created by Allah for that person), and He gave you hearing (ears), sight (eyes) and hearts. Little is the thanks you give!
And they say: "When we are dead and become lost in the earth, shall we indeed be created anew?"
Nay, but they deny the Meeting with their Lord!
Say: "The angel of death, who is set over you, will take your souls. Then you shall be brought to your Lord."
In the name of God, the Gracious, the Merciful.
Surah
1. Glory to Him who journeyed His servant by night, from the Sacred Mosque, to the Farthest Mosque, whose precincts We have blessed, in order to show him of Our wonders. He is the Listener, the Beholder.
2. And We gave Moses the Scripture, and made it a guide for the Children of Israel: Take none for protector other than Me.
3. The descendants of those We carried with Noah. He was an appreciative servant.
4. And We conveyed to the Children of Israel in the Scripture: You will commit evil on earth twice, and you will rise to a great height.
5. When the first of the two promises came true, We sent against you servants of Ours, possessing great might, and they ransacked your homes. It was a promise fulfilled.
6. Then We gave you back your turn against them, and supplied you with wealth and children, and made you more numerous.
7. If you work righteousness, you work righteousness for yourselves; and if you commit evil, you do so against yourselves. Then, when the second promise comes true, they will make your faces filled with sorrow, and enter the Temple as they entered it the first time, and utterly destroy all that falls into their power.
8. Perhaps your Lord will have mercy on you. But if you revert, We will revert. We have made Hell a prison for the disbelievers.
9. This Quran guides to what is most upright; and it gives good news to the believers who do good deeds, that they will have a great reward.
10. And those who do not believe in the Hereafter—We have prepared for them a painful punishment.
11. The human being prays for evil as he prays for good. The human being is very hasty.
12. We have made the night and the day two wonders. We erased the wonder of the night, and made the wonder of the day revealing, that you may seek bounty from your Lord, and know the number of years, and the calculation. We have explained all things in detail.
13. For every person We have attached his fate to his neck. And on the Day of Resurrection, We will bring out for him a book which he will find spread open.
14. “Read your book; today there will be none but yourself to call you to account.”
15. Whoever is guided—is guided for his own good. And whoever goes astray—goes astray to his detriment. No burdened soul carries the burdens of another, nor do We ever punish until We have sent a messenger.
16. When We decide to destroy a town, We command its affluent ones, they transgress in it, so the word becomes justified against it, and We destroy it completely.
17. How many generations have We destroyed after Noah? Your Lord is sufficient as Knower and Beholder of the sins of his servants.
18. Whoever desires the fleeting life, We expedite for him what We decide to give him, to whomever We desire. Then We consign him to Hell, where he will roast, condemned and defeated.
19. But whoever desires the Hereafter, and pursues it as it should be pursued, while he is a believer; these—their effort will be appreciated.
20. To all—these and those—We extend from the gifts of your Lord. The gifts of your Lord are not restricted.
21. See how We have favored some of them over others; yet the Hereafter is greater in ranks, and greater in favors.
22. Do not set up another god with God, lest you become condemned and damned.
23. Your Lord has commanded that you worship none but Him, and that you be good to your parents. If either of them or both of them reach old age with you, do not say to them a word of disrespect, nor scold them, but say to them kind words.
24. And lower to them the wing of humility, out of mercy, and say, “My Lord, have mercy on them, as they raised me when I was a child.”
25. Your Lord knows best what is in your minds. If you are righteous—He is Forgiving to the obedient.
26. And give the relative his rights, and the poor, and the wayfarer, and do not squander wastefully.
27. The extravagant are brethren of the devils, and the devil is ever ungrateful to his Lord.
28. But if you turn away from them, seeking mercy from your Lord which you hope for, then say to them words of comfort.
29. And do not keep your hand tied to your neck, nor spread it out fully, lest you end up liable and regretful.
30. Your Lord expands the provision for whomever He wills, and restricts it. He is fully Informed, Observant of His servants.
31. And do not kill your children for fear of poverty. We provide for them, and for you. Killing them is a grave sin.
32. And do not come near adultery. It is immoral, and an evil way.
33. And do not kill the soul which God has made sacred, except in the course of justice. If someone is killed unjustly, We have given his next of kin certain authority. But he should not be excessive in killing, for he will be supported.
34. And do not go near the orphan’s property, except with the best of intentions, until he has reached his maturity. And honor your pledge, because the pledge involves responsibility.
35. And give full measure when you measure, and weigh with accurate scales. That is fair, and the best determination.
36. And do not occupy yourself with what you have no knowledge of. The hearing, and the sight, and the brains—all these will be questioned.
37. And do not walk proudly on earth. You can neither pierce the earth, nor can you match the mountains in height.
38. The evil of all these is disliked by your Lord.
39. That is some of the wisdom your Lord has revealed to you. Do not set up with God another god, or else you will be thrown in Hell, rebuked and banished.
40. Has your Lord favored you with sons, while choosing for Himself daughters from among the angels? You are indeed saying a terrible thing.
41. We have explained in this Quran in various ways, that they may remember, but it only adds to their rebellion.
42. Say, “If there were other gods with Him, as they say, they would have sought a way to the Lord of the Throne.”
43. Be He glorified. He is exalted, far above what they say.
44. Praising Him are the seven heavens, and the earth, and everyone in them. There is not a thing that does not glorify Him with praise, but you do not understand their praises. He is indeed Forbearing and Forgiving.
45. When you read the Quran, We place between you and those who do not believe in the Hereafter an invisible barrier.
46. And We drape veils over their hearts, preventing them from understanding it, and heaviness in their ears. And when you mention your Lord alone in the Quran, they turn their backs in aversion.
47. We know well what they listen to, when they listen to you, as they conspire, when the wrongdoers say, “You only follow a man bewitched.”
48. Note what they compared you to. They are lost, and unable to find a way.
49. And they say, “When we have become bones and fragments, shall we really be resurrected as a new creation?”
50. Say, “Even if you become rocks or iron.
51. Or some substance, which, in your minds, is even harder.” Then they will say, “Who will restore us?” Say, “The One who originated you the first time.” Then they will nod their heads at you, and say, “When will it be?” Say, “Perhaps it will be soon.”
52. On the Day when He calls you, you will respond with His praise, and you will realize that you stayed only a little.
53. Tell My servants to say what is best. Satan sows discord among them. Satan is to man an open enemy.
54. Your Lord knows you best. If He wills, He will have mercy on you; and if He wills, He will punish you. We did not send you as their advocate.
55. Your Lord knows well everyone in the heavens and the earth. We have given some prophets advantage over others; and to David We gave the Psalms.
56. Say, “Call upon those you claim besides Him. They have no power to relieve your adversity, nor can they change it.”
57. Those they call upon are themselves seeking means of access to their Lord, vying to be nearer, and hoping for His mercy, and fearing His punishment. The punishment of your Lord is to be dreaded.
58. There is no city but We will destroy before the Day of Resurrection, or punish it with a severe punishment. This is inscribed in the Book.
59. Nothing prevents Us from sending miraculous signs, except that the ancients called them lies. We gave Thamood the she-camel, a visible sign, but they mistreated her. We do not send the signs except to instill reverence.
60. We said to you that your Lord encompasses humanity. We did not make the vision We showed you, except as a test for the people, and the tree cursed in the Quran. We frighten them, but that only increases their defiance.
61. When We said to the angels, “Bow down before Adam,” they bowed down, except for Satan. He said, “Shall I bow down before someone You created from mud?”
62. He said, “Do You see this one whom You have honored more than me? If You reprieve me until the Day of Resurrection, I will bring his descendants under my sway, except for a few.”
63. He said, “Begone! Whoever of them follows you—Hell is your reward, an ample reward.”
64. “And entice whomever of them you can with your voice, and rally against them your cavalry and your infantry, and share with them in wealth and children, and make promises to them.” But Satan promises them nothing but delusion.
65. “As for My devotees, you have no authority over them.” Your Lord is an adequate Guardian.
66. Your Lord is He who propels for you the ships at sea, that you may seek of His bounty. He is towards you Most Merciful.
67. When harm afflicts you at sea, those you pray to vanish, except for Him. But when He saves you to land, you turn away. The human being is ever thankless.
68. Are you confident that He will not cause a track of land to cave in beneath you, or unleash a tornado against you, and then you find no protector?
69. Or are you confident that He will not return you to it once again, and unleash a hurricane against you, and drown you for your ingratitude? Then you will find no helper against Us.
70. We have honored the Children of Adam, and carried them on land and sea, and provided them with good things, and greatly favored them over many of those We created.
71. On the Day when We call every people with their leader. Whoever is given his record in his right hand—these will read their record, and they will not be wronged one bit.
72. But whoever is blind in this, he will be blind in the Hereafter, and further astray from the way.
73. They almost lured you away from what We have revealed to you, so that you would invent something else in Our name. In that case, they would have taken you for a friend.
74. Had We not given you stability, you might have inclined towards them a little.
75. Then We would have made you taste double in life, and double at death; then you would have found for yourself no helper against Us.
76. They almost provoked you, to expel you from the land. In that case, they would not have lasted after you, except briefly.
77. The tradition of the messengers We sent before you—you will find no change in Our rules.
78. Perform the prayer at the decline of the sun, until the darkness of the night; and the Quran at dawn. The Quran at dawn is witnessed.
79. And keep vigil with it during parts of the night, as an extra prayer. Perhaps your Lord will raise you to a laudable position.
80. And say, “My Lord, lead me in through an entry of truth, and lead me out through an exit of truth, and grant me from You a supporting power.”
81. And say, “The truth has come, and falsehood has withered away; for falsehood is bound to wither away.”
82. We send down in the Quran healing and mercy for the believers, but it increases the wrongdoers only in loss.
83. When We bless the human being, he turns away and distances himself. But when adversity touches him, he is in despair.
84. Say, “Each does according to his disposition. Your Lord knows best who is better guided in the way.”
85. And they ask you about the Spirit. Say, “The Spirit belongs to the domain of my Lord; and you were given only little knowledge.”
86. If We willed, We could take away what We revealed to you. Then you will find for yourself no protecting guardian against Us.
87. Except through a mercy from your Lord. His favors upon you have been great.
88. Say, “If mankind and jinn came together to produce the like of this Quran, they could never produce the like of it, even if they backed up one another.”
89. We have displayed for mankind in this Quran every kind of similitude, but most people insist on denying the truth.
90. And they said, “We will not believe in you unless you make a spring burst from the ground for us.
91. Or you have a garden of palms and vines; then cause rivers to gush pouring through them.
92. Or make the sky fall on us in pieces, as you claim, or bring God and the angels before us.
93. Or you possess a house of gold. Or you ascend into the sky. Even then, we will not believe in your ascension, unless you bring down for us a book that we can read.” Say, “Glory be to my Lord. Am I anything but a human messenger?”
94. Nothing prevented the people from believing, when guidance has come to them, except that they said, “Did God send a human messenger?”
95. Say, “If there were angels on earth, walking around in peace, We would have sent down to them from heaven an angel messenger.”
96. Say, “God is enough witness between you and me. He is fully aware of His servants, and He sees them well.”
97. Whomever God guides is the guided one. And whomever He leaves astray—for them you will find no protectors apart from Him. And We will gather them on the Day of Resurrection, on their faces, blind, dumb, and deaf. Their abode is Hell; whenever it abates, We intensify the blaze for them.
98. This is their repayment for having blasphemed against Our revelations, and having said, “Shall we, when we have become bones and fragments, be resurrected as a new creation?”
99. Do they not consider that God, Who created the heavens and the earth, is Able to create the likes of them? He has assigned for them a term, in which there is no doubt. But the wrongdoers persist in denying the truth.
100. Say, “If you possessed the treasuries of my Lord’s mercy, you would have withheld them for fear of spending.” The human being has always been stingy.
101. We gave Moses nine clear signs—ask the Children of Israel. When he went to them, Pharaoh said to him, “I think that you, Moses, are bewitched.”
102. He said, “You know that none sent these down except the Lord of the heavens and the earth—eye openers; and I think that you, Pharaoh, are doomed.”
103. He resolved to scare them off the land, but We drowned him, and those with him, altogether.
104. After him, We said to the Children of Israel, “Inhabit the land, and when the promise of the Hereafter arrives, We will bring you all together.”
105. With the truth We sent it down, and with the truth it descended. We sent you only as a bearer of good news and a warner.
106. A Quran which We unfolded gradually, that you may recite to the people over time. And We revealed it in stages.
107. Say, “Believe in it, or do not believe.” Those who were given knowledge before it, when it is recited to them, they fall to their chins, prostrating.
108. And they say, “Glory to our Lord. The promise of our Lord is fulfilled.”
109. And they fall to their chins, weeping, and it adds to their humility.
110. Say, “Call Him God, or call Him the Most Merciful. Whichever name you use, to Him belong the Best Names.” And be neither loud in your prayer, nor silent in it, but follow a course in between.
111. And say, “Praise be to God, who has not begotten a son, nor has He a partner in sovereignty, nor has He an ally out of weakness, and glorify Him constantly.”