The Great Watchby

Apr 27, 2025·By Soul Air Reality

In the past twelve hours, I have come to learn enough for you, Firas Taher, to confirm — whether you like it or not — that this is a true family trial. And whether you acknowledge it, Allah is not pleased with the way you are denying it.

You have been given knowledge and authority to help, yet you are sabotaging your own progress by watching without acting. You have not been privy to the reality of how we live our lives for years now — with Issam's permission too. You were a witness to the struggle before it became a show. That alone is a sign for you to reflect on, regardless of your clearance or your role. You have seen with your own eyes nearly the complete proof of how and why everything unfolded.

No wonder you disappeared over the years.
But even then, I hoped your nature would not be rooted in the need to know — but rather in a concern to know.
Had that been the case, you would not have shown sensitive, explicit content to other family members.
You already knew about my real father long before it ever became a threat to my dignity or my dad's.
Still, you chose to make the road harder instead of easier, even though you witnessed firsthand how my spiritual work stopped the bad influences from taking over.

I have been asking — begging — for an easy, peaceful way for all of us to get out of this without dramatic exits. Allah is inspiring the threshold of time as a warning, giving us increments of time to understand the lesson before He changes the curriculum.

But you — you are so set on making me out to be a cheater because it's a convenient coincidence.
At the same time, you are so set on ignoring all the evidence you already know that wipes out that convenient narrative.
No matter how we were raised — and Allah knows how many times we've seen that finger to the lips: "Hush. Don’t tell."
You still should tell — but tell the right people, those capable of forging the path, not hoard the truth for entertainment.

The more you try to control the outcome, the closer Allah will draw Himself to the real solution.
You have the ability to use your authority for what it was created for: to serve justice and peace.
The same way Allah created you — to serve justice and peace.

I never cheated on Issam.
No matter how much dirt was piled on me.
Please — save yourself from the repercussions of ignoring and overlooking Allah’s clear signs, especially when you are someone personally involved and given authority to alleviate — not intensify — the trial.

Allah did not make us an entertainment spectacle just for surveillance.
He made us a message, a warning, a living proof of the difference between right and wrong, yes and no in Islam.
You are a witness to the trial and error, and you know how easily the deen is misunderstood.
You witnessed even the early days when I was still new to all of this.

Can you blame me? Allah gave me the ability to understand and perceive, but not always the ability to express it properly.
He gave me the ability to defend myself but not the ability to depress the main point.
You saw the rejection I faced — again and again — and all the attempts I made to reconcile.
You witnessed my 3 AM wake-ups, ordering those niqabs.
You witnessed my 2 AM prayers that seeded all of this years before it exploded.

I could go on.
You might think there is hate in me right now — but there is not even an ounce if it--I just want peace. Literally. For all of us.

I want my children back rightfully.
I want their tongues to stop uttering lies and deceit.
I want my daughter to actually grow into herself without the burden of guilt and consequences for what she knows is wrong.

It is no coincidence you witnessed me slowly transferring all my rights to her before my arrest.
All of it — Allah's plan — knowing it was inevitable because she kept rejecting His guidance.
By her own choice, my limits became her burden to carry.

This is the sad reality when you trust the authority over you: they weaponize your weaknesses to benefit themselves.
That is why Issam never had spiritual authority over me — there was no sincere trust from the beginning.
We were both left to be tested — with our gratitude, with our limits.

I always remained receptive to Allah’s test.
That is why I never cheated: I was trying, actively trying, to fall in love with Issam in the way that would help him love me the way he wanted.

And it's a good thing you saw that effort reach the throat — before Allah allowed it to die. Take the truth when its calling -- especially when you've had front row seats -- watching it all simultaneously fold and unfold — the truth you know deep down at your core, dont listen to that conditional ego keeps telling you to deny.